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lovely mommy

hey hello :)

how does it feel, when you are far away from home, from your family, from your parents?

i woke up earlier, really earlier in the morning, don't know why,

and just got BBM (Blackberry Messenger) message from my mother.

She's really a strong women. she is working hard when daddy still in South Korea continued his study, for five years.

Even she looks fierce and easy to angry to us, but i believe that because she's too tired and she looks everything doesn't happen like what she wants.

She always give advices, which i thought it's not really important.

but now i realized, i really need it in my life.

even i'm not too close to her, i believe, she know what i need, she always suggest the best.

i love you mom.

you're the best i ever have.

nobody's like you :')

no title ♥

for you ♥

holiday

i wish you were here

don't need to spend all of your time with me

just do what you want

just act like yourself

just need you were here

so i can see you

and know you're fine :)

something important should not always keep,

but let them learn from their experience.

that's life ;)

for you ♥

holiday

i wish you were here

don't need to spend all of your time with me

just do what you want

just act like yourself

just need you were here

so i can see you

and know you're fine :)

something important should not always keep,

but let them learn from their experience.

that's life ;)

fasting - day 1

"Learn to be grateful in every situation. Every problems can be solved in Him, who give us strength"

well, long time not write ya ^^
this is the 8th day i was home.
i think mom a little bit upset because i just spend my 2 weeks at home, besides i got holiday for 1 month and 2 weeks LOL
i'm sorry mom, i've applied to be committee :)

well, talk about problems, we all have problems.
who didn't? i don't think so.
we all have it.
we should face it.
maybe you think, so easy you can say like that.
that's true :)
sometimes i feel scared and run away from my problems.

but hey, i've realized !
it cause nothing.
it can solved the problems, it just hide it for a while,
but it will come again. When it comes, it will be bigger.
so, there's no reason to run away, rite?

Try to be grateful in every situation. STOP WHINING !
it won't make you feel better.
it will make you feel sad, upset, and minimize your potential.
so, you, grow up! you've chose it, you know the risk.
don't be like a child :)

next, don't you remember?
we have GOD ! our creator ! :D
or maybe you forget Him? well, once? twice? errr, okay. usually.
got it. i did it too :)
but then i realized, i'm nothing without Him :)
i was here because of Him, i can stand here because He gave chance,
i can have all things i used now because Him let me use it for good :)
we are nothing without Him guys :)

first day fasting, hmmmmm..
what do you think about it?
try to handle yourself? keep your heart clean?
that's true :)
but i have desire,
not just at fasting period we act like this.
after it, before it, in whole of our life.
so we can feel God's presence in our life :)

okay enough for today :)
one i want you to remember,
LEARN TO BE GRATEFUL - everything which happened in our life is for our goods :)
STOP WHINING - never make better
REMEMBER THAT YOU HAVE A BIG GOD WHO CAN HELP YOU TO FACE YOUR PROBLEMS - He's gorgeous dude, believe me. Ask for strength from Him, He will lead your way :)



morning, happy fasting
keep blessed :)

last word for you

"everything which happened in your life, either good or bad, has some meaning for your life..maybe you won't understand it now, but at the time, you'll get the point"

i did mistakes.
many.

sorry to my ex-boyfriend. now i know, how much i meant to you.
but it's not the only reason i asked for break up.
i need some time.
you're right, i'm an ungrown girl.
that's why.
i need more time, to learn, to play, to try something new, before i started to enter a relationship.

i'm not ready now.

you must be asking in your mind, "why it's so hard to say it in front of me?"
haha. i don't know. i can't get the words in front of you.
i admit, sometimes you make me scared a little bit. hehe


if you were my mate,
we'll meet again :)

thanks for all, thanks for everything.


p.s : don't watch too much movie, and don't play football manager too much

Happy Sunday ! ♥

troubles can come in many ways, but one you should do.

Keep believe to your heart, and keep stay with God because from Him, come peace and concentrate, and calm down anger and fear ♥

few days ago, i try to pass my days without God. know what happened? i can't do anything. I can't concentrate, i always feel something missing, and I can't control myself.

See, what happened without God?

You can say you are strong, smart, can do anything.

but without God, all things you have done are nothing.

When it comes to God, it will be something.

all of them, include yourself, just to praise His name :)

Happy Sunday all, keep blessing.

Remember, you're God's. You're nothing without Him.

Surrender all to Him, He will bless your way :)

him

everything happens for a reason. there will no rainbow without rain ♥

-thanks roommate for the words ;)-

hello all ♥

i forget to introduce you to my first boyfriend ;)

his name is Mario Jorge Valdano.

He is, gorgeous. charming. cute. smart.

wanna see him? this is him *chuckles*

well, spending 8 months and 6 days with him, i learned many things.

He want the best for me, he forced me to do many things i afraid to do.

He knows me, he realized what's good and what can i do but i never do it.

i never regret i ever had a crush with him

"he brings out the best in me, like no one else can do

that's why i'm by his side, that's why i will always love him" ♥

i love you, now, and don't know until when.

i love you :)

Happy Monday to you ♥

maybe you think you are big enough
you think you can choose what you think the best for you

but when your parents warn you about it, don't mad
they just want the best for you, they want you to be happy.

they are your parents
no parents want their children sad


Happy Monday all ♥
don't forget to say thanks to God for the best parents He gave to you ;)

late night Quote ;)

"parents and family. two things you can't let them go. they will there when you need someone to talk to. when you feel you lost something, it is them."

spend your time all with your precious persons, coz you will never know what will you be, where will you live.

remember that, you are nothing without them

i wish i could be there with them <3

--- written while watching "13 Going to 30" ---

think it deeply

"work's live is like hell. nobody will praise what you do because it is exactly what you supposed to do. but when you did wrong, they give you criticism more than you think."



if you still a student, enjoy your day ♥

if you already entered your woks's world, stop whining. enjoy it.
you know what you had chose in the past.
now, do it ♥

everything has it's time.
getting old is a must, but getting wiser is a choice :)


--- it was written when watching "The Devil Wears Prada" ---

Today's Quote

"what we have done, either good or bad, either we got praise or criticism, it refers to our Father too."

Happy Saturday all ♥

Today's Quote

"keep be grateful

God take something from you, but He gives you something too"

why

why it's so hard to keep mind in our own problems and stop to try to manage somebody else's problem?

why always judge people first but in the fact they don't even close with that people?

why people stay to talk about someone in the back besides talk with that person face to face about their problem with the person?

why they don't shut up or asked the truth to the person?

why it's so hard to find 'true' friends?

why it's so hard to believe?

why many people hurts than care?

why?

Daddy, I love you

I just checked my old e-mail on yahoo.
Deleted unimportants e-mail, and collect my dad's e-mail to me.

One of my dad's e-mail, the subject is "It's nice wording"
I think the e-mail is full of some wise words or any inspired words like usual.

But guess, what is that.
When I opened it, Daddy just wrote,
"Think it deeply. Have a wonderful day. GBU
Love, Daddy"

When I read it, i think, "what's the meaning of this e-mail?"
but when I read it again and again, I started to cry. While I wrote this, I still crying.

You know what I feel?
I miss my dad. I love him so much.
Even he's busy with his subjects and all of his projects there, he still can write, even just a simple words and send it to my e-mail, even he knows, it's 9:1 i will read it.
I've changed my e-mail, i prefer to open my facebook acc than my yahoo acc. He knows that . But he wrote it, and send it to me.
It was not an usual thing. It was the first time I get e-mail like that from Daddy.

Now I feel that he loves me, he pray for me, he wants the best for me.
I regret the time when I don't want listen what he said, I angry to him, and I break the rules that he made.
I'm not a good girl at all, i know.

I regret the time when i don't want accompany him when he asked me,
I regret the time when i don't want to talk to him when he calling at home.
I regret everything.

Now, when I'm so far away from home and he is too, I miss the day when we can be together at home.
When it will happen again?
Even he can go home at June I can't meet him.
Now I lost every chance.

I miss the time he asked me to accompany him to go to a place,
I miss the time we go to the bookstore together,
I miss the time when we go to buy 'martabak manis' together and debating about the flavour,
I miss the time when i accompany him to go a radio station when I still in elementary school,
I miss the time when he pick me at school,
I miss the time when he said happy birthday to me (he usually forget my sister and brother's birthday),
I miss the time when she bring me to the church,
I miss the time when he asked me to helped him,
I miss the time when we talked about computer and it's stuff,
I miss the time when he pray for me and my future,
I miss the time when he angry to me because I choose to read comic books rather than studying,
I miss the time when we go to the perfume store together,
I miss the time when we go to buy magazines together,
I miss the time when he taught me how to drive,
I miss the time when I and my siblings together to massage daddy and mommy,
I miss the time when he asked me to improve my english,
I miss everytime i can be with him.

He seems let me decide everything alone and let me learn from my experience.
But now i know, he always care about me.
He want me first who asked his help, and he always there to hug me when i feel down.

Dad, just one thing I want you to know.
I Love you. I promise, I will make you proud.


don't ever wasting our time when we still can be with our parents.
don't ever make a mistake like me.
believe me, it's hurt.

i'm sad when i know about this :(

I've seen a group in facebook named "Anti Yesus".
I won't give the link. You can search it with search box at facebook if you want to see the group.
Here, people who the religion is Muslim said that Jesus is not God and bla bla bla.
Here i won't talk about the differences what happened in the Bible and the Al-Quran.
But here, i want to say, why we, people who have religion, people who teached by our parents based on our religion, should act like that?

should said that religion A is right and religion B is wrong. should insult another religion's God?
why should we act like that?
When I read the wall of the group, man, it's so scarrying. Why they did it?
If I want to answer it, i can answer it. but it won't solve the problem. it will make the problem bigger and bigger.
Religion thingy is not a thing that can be debating. It is about you, and your relationship with your God.
it's not about who right and who wrong, but about faith.

Indonesia gives us right to choose our own religion.
And based on every religion, we never taught that we can insult another religion.
we can compare one religion and others.

We do believe in our religion, we act like what our religion taught us, but we can't force people to choose our religion.
everyone has their own right, their own faith.

our Holy Scripture, whatever it is, i believe, taught us to live in peace with another.

who is the trigger for the war between religion? who is the trigger for the murderer between religion?
well, based on me, i think it started from the people, who being a 'religion-holic', then they become blind, and forget what should they do based on their religion teaching exactly.

From the deepest of my heart, when I read all of the wall post there, i want to cry.
"God, why people here should debating one another?" that's what I think.
It's not what He wants. I believe He wants us to live in peace, do good things to anothers, even they have different religion with us.

I never say that Muslim is not good, I have many friends which is Muslim and they are all good to me. They never do something bad to me. And i like to make a good friend with them. I can trust them, and they can trust me too.
But, when I say this group, I really sad. Why people on this group should act like that? What is the trigger of this group?

And one thing again makes me sad, some of people who have same faith with me, respond it.
Why they should do it?
If there's fire, and you put oil there, it will bigger.

We have our own faith, we have our own trust. Why don't we try to keep it day by day rather than we take care of insult another religion's God?
I believe God doesn't want we to add more people who trust in Him with the way is insult another religion.

Last thing I want to say,
please, from this experience i got, we live in peace. start from ourselves, respect one another, and never respond if we meet case like this.
Respect each other, keep your faith, and be blessed every where.
Like what our religion taught us, and our parents taught us based on the religion.

I will really sad if i lose some of my friends because of the differences of religion.


Finally, i say sorry if what i write here offend some people.
I never mean it. I just want we to live in peace and never insult another religion, because this is a sensitive topic.


be blessed, Keep respect others.
hope we can live in peace forever.
Lots love from me ;)

another Quote :D

"We never awesome, actually. It is God, who planned everything for us"


"Do not regret what happened in the past. All of it already happened, and it can't be repeated anymore. It was a progress, which make you learn, and will make you better than before."

I totally love those words :D

He planned everything for us, coz He is our creator, and He knows what the best for us.

When problems happened, we usually asked "why it could happened?"
The answer is, "To make you better than before."
That's the answer for question, 'why'.

The question should we ask to God when problems come is, "What You want me to learn from this?"
it will make you feel better, and make you can see the problem from another side.

Since we were born till die, we have one progress that can't be stop.
LEARNING

everything happened in our life, it happens to make us learn, to be better person than before.
We, who decide it, want to learn or not.

So, take your decision, make sure it won't give bad things for you ;)




Be blessed, Keep learning




Regards,
Putrii

"L-O-V-E"

Well, today I was thinking twice. Now is abuot LOVE. If you love someone, what do you feel? Wanna be with them every time you can, want to know more about them?

The key in a relationship, beside TRUST EACH OTHER, is DO NOT BE SELFISH. That's what I think.

I think, the point of loving someone is not EVERYTHING IS FOR THEM. I don't think so. If your partner asked you to do something that against yourself, your habit, your daily attitude which you know exactly it is not good for you, will you do it? Even your partner say, "It's okay. It will be fine."
Will you do it?

The point of loving someone is not about you. It is about your partner, people you love and your partner love, and how you put God in your relationship.

If you love someone, TRY NOT TO BE SELFISH. Don't ever think like this, "The important one is me feel good, me like it. I don't care if my partner like it. It's me who happy first, then you."
Believe it or not, many couple think about it on their mind, unconsiously.

In a relationship, PUT GOD INSIDE IT. That's the basiccally thing. So, there are three people, you, God, and your partner.

Firstly, You should ask God before you choose your partner. A relationship is not just for today. It is for a period, the time where you will know each other more, find what you like or dislike from your partner's habits and attitudes, and chande yourself to be better if your partner doesn't agree with your habits and attitudes and you realized that is wrong too.

Secondly, if everything already happened, surrender all your relationship to God. Remember that He is your creator. He created you with a purpose. Let Him guide you in everything you do, surrender your life to Him, ask Him what He want do with your life, include your relationship. Then believe, He always give the best for you. But to reach the best, you need to have progress in your life.

Thirdly, whatever you want to do, either in your relationship or your life, think about people you love (which i believe they love you too) too. Is that, what you want do, give a good impact or not to them. I believe out there, many people love you. They don't want you dissolved. They want the best for you. Be careful with what you do, think about the result first. Is the final result from what you do, will give a good impact for you, people around you,or not. Is what you do make many people upset to you, or not.
This rule occur to your partner too. Think about your partner, people who love your partner. your future and your partner future.

Fourthly, look at your partner. If they have some bad habits, help them to change it. Even you should andry to them, and they angry to you too, if it is cause good impact, do it. But remember, don't ever sacrifice yourself. You should sacrifice, yes. But look, think about yourself too. If what will you do (the sacrifice thingy) dissolved yourself, don't do it. I believe your partner can think too. They have brain to think and they know how to use it. They are adult. They can make decision for themselves.
Both of you should grow up. You be better, then your partner too.

When you do the fourth part, I believe it will hurt you much. You see they angry to you, besides that, they don't realized that what you do it's all for their goods. Maybe they will say you are selfish or anything else, but actually you do it all is not for yourself. Here, you should be strong. Ask God for the strength. Don't let yourself give chance to your partner to back to their old habit, that you know it's not good for them.
Just remember this one, you want to help your partner to be better than before. You don't want they dissolved.

Here i remembered about my parents. Now I'm far from them. Now i should decide alone, which one is good or not for myself. I remembered when they were angry to me because I don't listen to them, then I was angry to them because I think they don't understand me, but now I realized, what they say to me in the past, IT IS ALL RIGHT.
Well, i propose to you all, which still life with your parents, LISTEN WHAT THEY SAY. They always want the best for you. No parents want to look their children dissolved. No one :)
Mom, Dad, thanks for everything that both of you has given to me. I don't want to make you upset. Now, I started to learn by myself. I started to decide everything alone. I miss both of you Mom, Dad. I love you. You are the best :)


Last but not least,
"Love is not thinking about yourself now, but about you and your partner in the future" ;)



Be blessed, Keep Loving~



Regards,
Putrii

Sins

there is NO big sins or little sins. Sins are sins. And for it, God sacrificed Himself. To save us.

Today, i started to think about sins. I don't want to talk about big sins that i've done, or little sins that i've done. Well, it is not important because sins are sins.

What i thinking of today is, why we, young people, teenager, always do the same sins again and again. Well, it is not once, i believe. we did again the same sins. it is AGAIN AND AGAIN.

Why it could happen? Because we think, there is a little sins and big sins.
Big sins that we think like, steal something worth it, or have sex before married, or etc, etc.
How about the little sins? Little sins like lying, cheating, use dirty words, etc, etc. Maybe some of you will say, "Well, it's okay. Everyone did it. It becomes habit."
taaa-daaa. That's the point. It becomes habit.
If we didn't let it get into our life from the first time, i believe with all of my heart and my mind and my life, IT WILL NEVER BECOME HABIT.

But now, after all happened, how we handle it? I'm not a perfect person, what i write here, i should do it too. I just share what i get, let us know it together and try to do it. :)
First, DO NOT GIVE ANY CHANCE for the sins. Any little sins. Don't let evil tempt ourselves. Protect ourselves with God's words. How could we know the God's words? Read Bible everyday. Be close to Him. Ask the strength from God, because we are, human, just a weak person. We cannot handle ourselves alone. we SHOULD admit, WE NEED HIM. We need our creator.

Second, when it already become a habit, ASK retrieval from God. And again, ask for the strength. Honestly, it will happen again, i know. But every time it happen, think about it, why it could happened? What makes it happened? Everything happen because there is 'something' started it. When you get it, tell it to God. Tell that 'something' to God. Ask God to help you to face it. Because now you know, it is your weakness.

Finally, i just want to say.

All of us were created by Him. He already saved us from sins, He give us freedom from sins, but many times we didn't appreciate it.

Ask for the strength for each day, because everyday has it's problems itself.
Do ours wisely, and let He guide our day. Surrender all to Him ;)



Be blessed, keep strong in Him.






regards,
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about believing

actually if the way we think can't be changed like the way kids think which easy to believe and never hesitate, we will not understand and experienced the power of God's love

i remember when i was a little kid, i want to be a stewardess. Mom told me that a stewardess should be a pretty woman, tall, and so on. Since that i started to take care about myself. I washed my hair everyday, i brush my teeth, always smile to everyone, etc, etc.
Because Mom said that a stewardess must be a cheerful person, smile every time even they are tired, etc, etc, coz their job is serve people in the air plane, now I become a cheerful person, and always try to help people as possible as i can.
now i'm not a stewardess, but take Visual Communication as my major, but it cause something to me :)

But my story is not the point here. The point is what i did. Well, i believe. I believe to my mom, and i did it.

I remember when i was sixteen, going to seventeen, i said to Mom, "Mom, i don't want to have an Identity Card."
And Mom replied, "Why? You don't want to be a young lady?"
From the deepest of my heart, YES. I'm not ready. Be a young lady means that i should learn to live alone, decide everything by myself, and the last is i will hard to believe.

I think it is easier to be a little girl. A little girl who always listen to their parents, believe that everything will be fine if she listen what their parents said.
It is easier to have faith if we still a little kid. But, i know that life must go on. Even we are grow up now, we should like a little kid, to feel the power of God's love.

The key is listen, and believe.

Believe, and do it in our life.

When we grow up and know this whole world, we forget some of our good attitudes when we still a little kid.

I really hope can have faith like 'little me'.

Believe in Him, and do mine. He will do the rest.

I know it's hard to believe. But if we try, it will happen.

Do the best, believe, and God will do the rest.



Be blessed, keep believe :)

regards,
<3 Putrii

stay or leave

it is hurt me too much , but i try to survive
how could you say i don't love you?
why you still mad at me , shout at me?
seems like you don't care,
and all you have said, it's just a word

how could you prove it to me?

all your promises, all your words..
while you leave me in pain..

i try to believe you, even you've hurt me too many times..

is it not enough?


should i stay, or.. should i leave?

1st week

kay. this is my first week live AGAIN in the dormitory.
well, kinda happy, but kinda bored too.
like now. wow. i do nothing.
i have tried to do my assignments, but it DID NOT work.
gee.what should i do?

hmmm..lemme think bout this week first.
monday, 2Dimensional Design class, with Mr.Dedi Dahlan.
tuesday, Color theory class, with mr.Wildan again.assignment, find movie posters, analogue,complementary, and monochromatic pictures. three of each, and must be printed on an inject paper. wow. good. and buy five poster colour, brushes, and palette for make the color wheel.
wednesday, met Mr.Dedi again, in Aesthetics class. i'm happy. really.
ahh i forget! wednesday i went to GI with wise, cisya, monic, and koko vincent! three of us watched the princess and the frog, and monic and koko vincent watched messenger 2.
oh yea. THANKS GOD, MY GPA IS 3.3 !
ehm! kay. enough about that.
aha. i forget something. wednesday was the begin of that problem. but thanks AGAIN to God, i can face the problem. as usual, with him. hahahahaha.
thursday, the freakin' english class on 1.30 pm, with freakin' teacher, and i was sleepy in the class. really. he talked about the debate. no mid test, but for final test, we must do the debate in the lobby. gee. i think he is crazy. seriously. actually i have Computer Graphics I class in the morning, but my lecturer was sick, so he changed the time (i hope you feeling better now, babe Dino. heheheh)
and friday. Typography I with Mr.Hermanto. assignment again. i have TWO assignment now.
okay, everybody went home. i'm alone. what i do? well, i went to D2-07 to meet marcel. ahahahhaha. we're friends now. hahaha.
and i left Jason there, so here i am now. in D2-07 again. i already said before, i tried to do my assignment, but it doesn't work. geee. (God please help me)
i think i'm not feeling well today. i need to take some rest.
i hope next week better than before.

but i still love this week even i'm sick.hohohoho :]

two days to go , put and epan

whoa.
okay, this is our last day in Makassar.
me and Epan (my best friend, still remember him? :])

i want to write about yesterday, really unforgettable moment.


Thursday, January 7th, 2009.
i woke up with a very excited feeling. The sun was shining brightly, the weather was warm, what a perfect day to doing a trip. last plan, me, Evan, Hendrick Lerrick, and Mr.Dony Telim will have a trip to Rotterdam Fort, an old building in Makassar, that shown that Ducth ever come to Makassar once.
you know, i was waiting waiting and waiting.
but nobody calling me, nobody pick me up.
untill twelve o'clock, Mr.Dony Telim call me and said that we will go at two o'clock.
almost two o'clock.
i was excited. but, (i hate to admit it *sigh*) sky turn into grey, means rain will come.
wind blew hard and cold, nature seems not friendly with us.
it's hard to accept this condition. seriously, it's really hard.
i'm a lil bit upset, but i must go.
this is my two last day in Makassar, if i didn't do this, i will have a guilty and disappointed feeling inside.
after all, the weather not become better. but we decided to go.
it's rainy, wind blew a lil bit hard, but it's okay.

me, Epan, Prasto, Toeng, and Mr.Dony Telim arrived at Rotterdam Fort at about three o'clock.
Epan, being my model. (i admit, he's really cute and adorable. i like to take his picture! :])
even it was rainy and the weather seems not friendly with us, it wasn't a really bad day.
we got nice picture, and i can use Gabe yesterday.
thanks all, thanks friend, i love you all :)

wanna see another pictures?
go to my facebook's album, two days to go :)

and these are,
epan's photograph.
all by me :)
well, i am his paparazzi! :)

happy moment

i'm back!
i really sad can't share about yesterday soon.
but now, HERE I COME!

yesterday.
unforgettable moment.
well, not a special day, but.. yes.
i will never forget that moment.

rainy, windy, cool.
it was no sign that sky will back to blue, sun will shine again, weather will warm again.
i'm waiting.
today's plan, go with Sumarhadi and Andy Gotib to eat something called 'es pisang ijo'.
well, yesterday was the first time i hangout with Mr.Gotib (glad can meet you, mr.talented! ;])

go to eat soup, a kind of soup called 'sop lidah' (i never eat that before!),
then go to find 'es pisang ijo'.
sadly, i didn't take picture of us.
so i can't put it here *sad*

after that, i went to my childhood friend's house,
and go to dunkin donnut till 5.30 pm.
meet old friends,
sharing bout our university,
totally fun.
they still same like before.

Beatrix Suhuyanly - chose Product Design at Pelita Harapan University Jakarta as her major
Lucy - chose Pharmacy at Hassanuddin University Makassar as her major
Hartati Suwandy - chose International Business Management at Ciputra University Surabaya as her major
Novia Lie - chose Accounting at Atmajaya University Makassar as her major
Iverny Yosry - chose Management at Atmajaya University Makassar as her major
and me.
Putri Astika - chose Visual Communication Design at President University as my major.

happy together,
friend forever.
they will never change in my heart
nobody's can replace them

i love them :)

Future in You

Future in You - NeYo :)

gosh. i like this song!
well, actually i'm dreaming my love can say like that to me. (what a freaky dream.lol)
dreaming about wedding dress, wedding cake, the bridesmaid, propose, wedding ceremony, church, honey moon, two kids, and so on. (crazy me i think.lol)
but seriously, i hope he is the first and the last for me. i hope :D

think about it
you and me together
lovin each other
aimin at forever
think about it
you and me together
lovin each other babee

think about it
you and me together
lovin each other
aimin at forever
think about it
you and me together
lovin each other babee

now i don't wanna scare you
baby i just wana say
the little things you do for me
and the way
your workin twords my last name
i see you babe
said i see you babe

i can see my future in you
no other girl for me will do
cus i can see my future in you
got me lookin forward to forever
cus i can see

think about it
you and me together
lovin each other
aimin at forever
think about it
you and me together
lovin each other babee

think about it
you and me together
lovin each other
aimin at forever
think about it
you and me together
lovin each other babee

now i dont wana rush nothin baby just kno
when you say your ready to go we'll go
two kids, a dog, the house and all
tell me you see it babe

i can see my future in you
no other girl for me will do
cus i can see my future in you
got me lookin forward to forever
cus i can see

not tryna move to fast
but i just gotta ask
dont you see what i see for us girl
and is it too soon
to look at you
like i do
the way you make me feel is the stuff forever is made of

i can see my future in you
no other girl for me will do
cus i can see my future in you
got me lookin forward to forever
cus i can see


think about it
you and me together
lovin each other
aimin at forever
think about it
you and me together
lovin each other babee

think about it
you and me together
lovin each other
aimin at forever
think about it
you and me together
lovin each other babee

think about it
you and me together
lovin each other
aimin at forever
think about it
you and me together
lovin each other babee
(untill fades)


love, thanks for all.
God, thanks YOU made me meet him.

mon meilleur ami :D

this happened yesterday.
ohh i really LOVE dslr! :D
thanks to Mr. Dony Telim who wanna captured my photos!
he is Evander Obadja. well, call him Evan or Epan.
we like same thing.
songs, music, dance, movies, and we did crazy thing together.
like this one.
wow, we love to be a model-wannabe! (lol. this is the craziest)

here is some picture of us,

which taken yesterday, photograph by Mr. Dony Telim (thanks sir! Let us go to some place and i will be the model AGAIN! LOL)

it's totally about him :)

well,this is about my first love.
i still love him? totally no.
he always be my brother, and i will always admire him. seriously.

how come?
okay, i opened my 'blue book' this morning.
i wrote all of my poems there.
you can know my story in the past from that book.
one poem, really made me smile.
it is about him. (please, love. do not be jealous because of this one. it is my past. now, you own me)

here it is.

ABOUT HIM

he is...
kind and adorable
fascinate and mysterious
busy and smart
he has everything that people want...

too happy just because thinking about him
too excited to meet him
too proud to admire him
too scared to have him...

he is...
too perfect
too great
too amazing for me...

his kindness and his ingenuity
his skill and his busyness
all of that
always fill in my days,
my mind, and my imagination...

the way he laugh and smile which are really charming
the exhaustion which endured in his face
his busyness which make him always work faster
made me smile if i saw him
and say to myself, "i really love him"

but it is on the past.
i just remember about my past, today.
how could i really love him like that.
well, he is my first love.
people said,
"lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman..."
well, he is lucky then :D

love, i always love you. you know it.
when you read this, please do believe.
i love you whatever the stakes. like you love me.
please, do not hesitate my love to you.
you are the one and only for me.
nobody is like you. that is why i do not want to let you go.
i love you, i DO love you :)

finally!

this morning,
i woke up with a lil bit annoyed feelings (gee. why mom should woke me up on that time?)
okay, forget about that.

woke up on that time,
made me remembered about my conversation with him last nite.
well, a lil bit shocking me, of course.
coz i didn't expect that he will say that.
this is the story.
he called me, at 11.34 pm WIB.
then, we talked about what he feels and blablabla (something private.well,u'll know later ;])
after all, he forced me to make a promise.
i'm a lil bit scared about that, coz i know, if i can't fulfill my promise to him, he will got mad and i am not sure that he will forgive me if i do that.
he said, "this words, i want this chance be the first and the last time i say it. if i say it twice, i will make sure that our relationship, everything that we spend together, is nothing."
well, when i heard that, i feel... resigned.
you know, it's like the end of the world.
what should i do, if i do that? if i make him say that words twice.
will he leave me? gosh. i can not. i can not live without him i think.
i will feel like dying, maybe for a long time.
okay, i say yes for what he asked to me.
then, you know what did he say? (it made me speechless!! Seriously. you will not believe it!!)

okay,
he said.

"hurting you is the painful thing for me, so please, do not make me do that to you"

oh.my.god.
after he said like that.
i can not say anything.
seriously, i can not say anything.
it is like, G-dragon song.
"i can't breathe, i can't breathe.."
we were in silent for a while, until i said, "it's so sweet, love..i, i don't know what must i say to you"

gosh.
now i am thinking about a ring.
a ring, that show that he owns me. [lol]
but i do not know.
i can not guess what on his mind.
but really,
i totally love him :)

it's 2010 now!!!!

heyyaa!! happy new year everybody! :D
start the first day in 2010,
i slept at 6 o'clock in the morning. got up at 12 o'clock.
nothing special today, just wanna make sure myself still conscious to face this 2010.
oh yea.
today, i brought Sidney Sheldon's novel. (i'm looking fo the english one. but i didn't get it)
until now, i don't have time to read it.
next plan, going out with friends on 3rd, 5th, and 6th.
packaging on 7th and 8th,
back to Jakarta at 9th.
wow.
bye Makassar.
i'll be back next December :)