finally!

this morning,
i woke up with a lil bit annoyed feelings (gee. why mom should woke me up on that time?)
okay, forget about that.

woke up on that time,
made me remembered about my conversation with him last nite.
well, a lil bit shocking me, of course.
coz i didn't expect that he will say that.
this is the story.
he called me, at 11.34 pm WIB.
then, we talked about what he feels and blablabla (something private.well,u'll know later ;])
after all, he forced me to make a promise.
i'm a lil bit scared about that, coz i know, if i can't fulfill my promise to him, he will got mad and i am not sure that he will forgive me if i do that.
he said, "this words, i want this chance be the first and the last time i say it. if i say it twice, i will make sure that our relationship, everything that we spend together, is nothing."
well, when i heard that, i feel... resigned.
you know, it's like the end of the world.
what should i do, if i do that? if i make him say that words twice.
will he leave me? gosh. i can not. i can not live without him i think.
i will feel like dying, maybe for a long time.
okay, i say yes for what he asked to me.
then, you know what did he say? (it made me speechless!! Seriously. you will not believe it!!)

okay,
he said.

"hurting you is the painful thing for me, so please, do not make me do that to you"

oh.my.god.
after he said like that.
i can not say anything.
seriously, i can not say anything.
it is like, G-dragon song.
"i can't breathe, i can't breathe.."
we were in silent for a while, until i said, "it's so sweet, love..i, i don't know what must i say to you"

gosh.
now i am thinking about a ring.
a ring, that show that he owns me. [lol]
but i do not know.
i can not guess what on his mind.
but really,
i totally love him :)