it's totally about him :)

well,this is about my first love.
i still love him? totally no.
he always be my brother, and i will always admire him. seriously.

how come?
okay, i opened my 'blue book' this morning.
i wrote all of my poems there.
you can know my story in the past from that book.
one poem, really made me smile.
it is about him. (please, love. do not be jealous because of this one. it is my past. now, you own me)

here it is.

ABOUT HIM

he is...
kind and adorable
fascinate and mysterious
busy and smart
he has everything that people want...

too happy just because thinking about him
too excited to meet him
too proud to admire him
too scared to have him...

he is...
too perfect
too great
too amazing for me...

his kindness and his ingenuity
his skill and his busyness
all of that
always fill in my days,
my mind, and my imagination...

the way he laugh and smile which are really charming
the exhaustion which endured in his face
his busyness which make him always work faster
made me smile if i saw him
and say to myself, "i really love him"

but it is on the past.
i just remember about my past, today.
how could i really love him like that.
well, he is my first love.
people said,
"lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman..."
well, he is lucky then :D

love, i always love you. you know it.
when you read this, please do believe.
i love you whatever the stakes. like you love me.
please, do not hesitate my love to you.
you are the one and only for me.
nobody is like you. that is why i do not want to let you go.
i love you, i DO love you :)