Daddy, I love you

I just checked my old e-mail on yahoo.
Deleted unimportants e-mail, and collect my dad's e-mail to me.

One of my dad's e-mail, the subject is "It's nice wording"
I think the e-mail is full of some wise words or any inspired words like usual.

But guess, what is that.
When I opened it, Daddy just wrote,
"Think it deeply. Have a wonderful day. GBU
Love, Daddy"

When I read it, i think, "what's the meaning of this e-mail?"
but when I read it again and again, I started to cry. While I wrote this, I still crying.

You know what I feel?
I miss my dad. I love him so much.
Even he's busy with his subjects and all of his projects there, he still can write, even just a simple words and send it to my e-mail, even he knows, it's 9:1 i will read it.
I've changed my e-mail, i prefer to open my facebook acc than my yahoo acc. He knows that . But he wrote it, and send it to me.
It was not an usual thing. It was the first time I get e-mail like that from Daddy.

Now I feel that he loves me, he pray for me, he wants the best for me.
I regret the time when I don't want listen what he said, I angry to him, and I break the rules that he made.
I'm not a good girl at all, i know.

I regret the time when i don't want accompany him when he asked me,
I regret the time when i don't want to talk to him when he calling at home.
I regret everything.

Now, when I'm so far away from home and he is too, I miss the day when we can be together at home.
When it will happen again?
Even he can go home at June I can't meet him.
Now I lost every chance.

I miss the time he asked me to accompany him to go to a place,
I miss the time we go to the bookstore together,
I miss the time when we go to buy 'martabak manis' together and debating about the flavour,
I miss the time when i accompany him to go a radio station when I still in elementary school,
I miss the time when he pick me at school,
I miss the time when he said happy birthday to me (he usually forget my sister and brother's birthday),
I miss the time when she bring me to the church,
I miss the time when he asked me to helped him,
I miss the time when we talked about computer and it's stuff,
I miss the time when he pray for me and my future,
I miss the time when he angry to me because I choose to read comic books rather than studying,
I miss the time when we go to the perfume store together,
I miss the time when we go to buy magazines together,
I miss the time when he taught me how to drive,
I miss the time when I and my siblings together to massage daddy and mommy,
I miss the time when he asked me to improve my english,
I miss everytime i can be with him.

He seems let me decide everything alone and let me learn from my experience.
But now i know, he always care about me.
He want me first who asked his help, and he always there to hug me when i feel down.

Dad, just one thing I want you to know.
I Love you. I promise, I will make you proud.


don't ever wasting our time when we still can be with our parents.
don't ever make a mistake like me.
believe me, it's hurt.