I just checked my old e-mail on yahoo.
Deleted unimportants e-mail, and collect my dad's e-mail to me.
One of my dad's e-mail, the subject is "It's nice wording"
I think the e-mail is full of some wise words or any inspired words like usual.
But guess, what is that.
When I opened it, Daddy just wrote,
"Think it deeply. Have a wonderful day. GBU
Love, Daddy"
When I read it, i think, "what's the meaning of this e-mail?"
but when I read it again and again, I started to cry. While I wrote this, I still crying.
You know what I feel?
I miss my dad. I love him so much.
Even he's busy with his subjects and all of his projects there, he still can write, even just a simple words and send it to my e-mail, even he knows, it's 9:1 i will read it.
I've changed my e-mail, i prefer to open my facebook acc than my yahoo acc. He knows that . But he wrote it, and send it to me.
It was not an usual thing. It was the first time I get e-mail like that from Daddy.
Now I feel that he loves me, he pray for me, he wants the best for me.
I regret the time when I don't want listen what he said, I angry to him, and I break the rules that he made.
I'm not a good girl at all, i know.
I regret the time when i don't want accompany him when he asked me,
I regret the time when i don't want to talk to him when he calling at home.
I regret everything.
Now, when I'm so far away from home and he is too, I miss the day when we can be together at home.
When it will happen again?
Even he can go home at June I can't meet him.
Now I lost every chance.
I miss the time he asked me to accompany him to go to a place,
I miss the time we go to the bookstore together,
I miss the time when we go to buy 'martabak manis' together and debating about the flavour,
I miss the time when i accompany him to go a radio station when I still in elementary school,
I miss the time when he pick me at school,
I miss the time when he said happy birthday to me (he usually forget my sister and brother's birthday),
I miss the time when she bring me to the church,
I miss the time when he asked me to helped him,
I miss the time when we talked about computer and it's stuff,
I miss the time when he pray for me and my future,
I miss the time when he angry to me because I choose to read comic books rather than studying,
I miss the time when we go to the perfume store together,
I miss the time when we go to buy magazines together,
I miss the time when he taught me how to drive,
I miss the time when I and my siblings together to massage daddy and mommy,
I miss the time when he asked me to improve my english,
I miss everytime i can be with him.
He seems let me decide everything alone and let me learn from my experience.
But now i know, he always care about me.
He want me first who asked his help, and he always there to hug me when i feel down.
Dad, just one thing I want you to know.
I Love you. I promise, I will make you proud.
don't ever wasting our time when we still can be with our parents.
don't ever make a mistake like me.
believe me, it's hurt.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
i'm sad when i know about this :(
I've seen a group in facebook named "Anti Yesus".
I won't give the link. You can search it with search box at facebook if you want to see the group.
Here, people who the religion is Muslim said that Jesus is not God and bla bla bla.
Here i won't talk about the differences what happened in the Bible and the Al-Quran.
But here, i want to say, why we, people who have religion, people who teached by our parents based on our religion, should act like that?
should said that religion A is right and religion B is wrong. should insult another religion's God?
why should we act like that?
When I read the wall of the group, man, it's so scarrying. Why they did it?
If I want to answer it, i can answer it. but it won't solve the problem. it will make the problem bigger and bigger.
Religion thingy is not a thing that can be debating. It is about you, and your relationship with your God.
it's not about who right and who wrong, but about faith.
Indonesia gives us right to choose our own religion.
And based on every religion, we never taught that we can insult another religion.
we can compare one religion and others.
We do believe in our religion, we act like what our religion taught us, but we can't force people to choose our religion.
everyone has their own right, their own faith.
our Holy Scripture, whatever it is, i believe, taught us to live in peace with another.
who is the trigger for the war between religion? who is the trigger for the murderer between religion?
well, based on me, i think it started from the people, who being a 'religion-holic', then they become blind, and forget what should they do based on their religion teaching exactly.
From the deepest of my heart, when I read all of the wall post there, i want to cry.
"God, why people here should debating one another?" that's what I think.
It's not what He wants. I believe He wants us to live in peace, do good things to anothers, even they have different religion with us.
I never say that Muslim is not good, I have many friends which is Muslim and they are all good to me. They never do something bad to me. And i like to make a good friend with them. I can trust them, and they can trust me too.
But, when I say this group, I really sad. Why people on this group should act like that? What is the trigger of this group?
And one thing again makes me sad, some of people who have same faith with me, respond it.
Why they should do it?
If there's fire, and you put oil there, it will bigger.
We have our own faith, we have our own trust. Why don't we try to keep it day by day rather than we take care of insult another religion's God?
I believe God doesn't want we to add more people who trust in Him with the way is insult another religion.
Last thing I want to say,
please, from this experience i got, we live in peace. start from ourselves, respect one another, and never respond if we meet case like this.
Respect each other, keep your faith, and be blessed every where.
Like what our religion taught us, and our parents taught us based on the religion.
I will really sad if i lose some of my friends because of the differences of religion.
Finally, i say sorry if what i write here offend some people.
I never mean it. I just want we to live in peace and never insult another religion, because this is a sensitive topic.
be blessed, Keep respect others.
hope we can live in peace forever.
Lots love from me ;)
I won't give the link. You can search it with search box at facebook if you want to see the group.
Here, people who the religion is Muslim said that Jesus is not God and bla bla bla.
Here i won't talk about the differences what happened in the Bible and the Al-Quran.
But here, i want to say, why we, people who have religion, people who teached by our parents based on our religion, should act like that?
should said that religion A is right and religion B is wrong. should insult another religion's God?
why should we act like that?
When I read the wall of the group, man, it's so scarrying. Why they did it?
If I want to answer it, i can answer it. but it won't solve the problem. it will make the problem bigger and bigger.
Religion thingy is not a thing that can be debating. It is about you, and your relationship with your God.
it's not about who right and who wrong, but about faith.
Indonesia gives us right to choose our own religion.
And based on every religion, we never taught that we can insult another religion.
we can compare one religion and others.
We do believe in our religion, we act like what our religion taught us, but we can't force people to choose our religion.
everyone has their own right, their own faith.
our Holy Scripture, whatever it is, i believe, taught us to live in peace with another.
who is the trigger for the war between religion? who is the trigger for the murderer between religion?
well, based on me, i think it started from the people, who being a 'religion-holic', then they become blind, and forget what should they do based on their religion teaching exactly.
From the deepest of my heart, when I read all of the wall post there, i want to cry.
"God, why people here should debating one another?" that's what I think.
It's not what He wants. I believe He wants us to live in peace, do good things to anothers, even they have different religion with us.
I never say that Muslim is not good, I have many friends which is Muslim and they are all good to me. They never do something bad to me. And i like to make a good friend with them. I can trust them, and they can trust me too.
But, when I say this group, I really sad. Why people on this group should act like that? What is the trigger of this group?
And one thing again makes me sad, some of people who have same faith with me, respond it.
Why they should do it?
If there's fire, and you put oil there, it will bigger.
We have our own faith, we have our own trust. Why don't we try to keep it day by day rather than we take care of insult another religion's God?
I believe God doesn't want we to add more people who trust in Him with the way is insult another religion.
Last thing I want to say,
please, from this experience i got, we live in peace. start from ourselves, respect one another, and never respond if we meet case like this.
Respect each other, keep your faith, and be blessed every where.
Like what our religion taught us, and our parents taught us based on the religion.
I will really sad if i lose some of my friends because of the differences of religion.
Finally, i say sorry if what i write here offend some people.
I never mean it. I just want we to live in peace and never insult another religion, because this is a sensitive topic.
be blessed, Keep respect others.
hope we can live in peace forever.
Lots love from me ;)
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
another Quote :D
"We never awesome, actually. It is God, who planned everything for us"
"Do not regret what happened in the past. All of it already happened, and it can't be repeated anymore. It was a progress, which make you learn, and will make you better than before."
I totally love those words :D
He planned everything for us, coz He is our creator, and He knows what the best for us.
When problems happened, we usually asked "why it could happened?"
The answer is, "To make you better than before."
That's the answer for question, 'why'.
The question should we ask to God when problems come is, "What You want me to learn from this?"
it will make you feel better, and make you can see the problem from another side.
Since we were born till die, we have one progress that can't be stop.
LEARNING
everything happened in our life, it happens to make us learn, to be better person than before.
We, who decide it, want to learn or not.
So, take your decision, make sure it won't give bad things for you ;)
Be blessed, Keep learning
Regards,
Putrii
"Do not regret what happened in the past. All of it already happened, and it can't be repeated anymore. It was a progress, which make you learn, and will make you better than before."
I totally love those words :D
He planned everything for us, coz He is our creator, and He knows what the best for us.
When problems happened, we usually asked "why it could happened?"
The answer is, "To make you better than before."
That's the answer for question, 'why'.
The question should we ask to God when problems come is, "What You want me to learn from this?"
it will make you feel better, and make you can see the problem from another side.
Since we were born till die, we have one progress that can't be stop.
LEARNING
everything happened in our life, it happens to make us learn, to be better person than before.
We, who decide it, want to learn or not.
So, take your decision, make sure it won't give bad things for you ;)
Be blessed, Keep learning
Regards,
Putrii
Monday, May 3, 2010
"L-O-V-E"
Well, today I was thinking twice. Now is abuot LOVE. If you love someone, what do you feel? Wanna be with them every time you can, want to know more about them?
The key in a relationship, beside TRUST EACH OTHER, is DO NOT BE SELFISH. That's what I think.
I think, the point of loving someone is not EVERYTHING IS FOR THEM. I don't think so. If your partner asked you to do something that against yourself, your habit, your daily attitude which you know exactly it is not good for you, will you do it? Even your partner say, "It's okay. It will be fine."
Will you do it?
The point of loving someone is not about you. It is about your partner, people you love and your partner love, and how you put God in your relationship.
If you love someone, TRY NOT TO BE SELFISH. Don't ever think like this, "The important one is me feel good, me like it. I don't care if my partner like it. It's me who happy first, then you."
Believe it or not, many couple think about it on their mind, unconsiously.
In a relationship, PUT GOD INSIDE IT. That's the basiccally thing. So, there are three people, you, God, and your partner.
Firstly, You should ask God before you choose your partner. A relationship is not just for today. It is for a period, the time where you will know each other more, find what you like or dislike from your partner's habits and attitudes, and chande yourself to be better if your partner doesn't agree with your habits and attitudes and you realized that is wrong too.
Secondly, if everything already happened, surrender all your relationship to God. Remember that He is your creator. He created you with a purpose. Let Him guide you in everything you do, surrender your life to Him, ask Him what He want do with your life, include your relationship. Then believe, He always give the best for you. But to reach the best, you need to have progress in your life.
Thirdly, whatever you want to do, either in your relationship or your life, think about people you love (which i believe they love you too) too. Is that, what you want do, give a good impact or not to them. I believe out there, many people love you. They don't want you dissolved. They want the best for you. Be careful with what you do, think about the result first. Is the final result from what you do, will give a good impact for you, people around you,or not. Is what you do make many people upset to you, or not.
This rule occur to your partner too. Think about your partner, people who love your partner. your future and your partner future.
Fourthly, look at your partner. If they have some bad habits, help them to change it. Even you should andry to them, and they angry to you too, if it is cause good impact, do it. But remember, don't ever sacrifice yourself. You should sacrifice, yes. But look, think about yourself too. If what will you do (the sacrifice thingy) dissolved yourself, don't do it. I believe your partner can think too. They have brain to think and they know how to use it. They are adult. They can make decision for themselves.
Both of you should grow up. You be better, then your partner too.
When you do the fourth part, I believe it will hurt you much. You see they angry to you, besides that, they don't realized that what you do it's all for their goods. Maybe they will say you are selfish or anything else, but actually you do it all is not for yourself. Here, you should be strong. Ask God for the strength. Don't let yourself give chance to your partner to back to their old habit, that you know it's not good for them.
Just remember this one, you want to help your partner to be better than before. You don't want they dissolved.
Here i remembered about my parents. Now I'm far from them. Now i should decide alone, which one is good or not for myself. I remembered when they were angry to me because I don't listen to them, then I was angry to them because I think they don't understand me, but now I realized, what they say to me in the past, IT IS ALL RIGHT.
Well, i propose to you all, which still life with your parents, LISTEN WHAT THEY SAY. They always want the best for you. No parents want to look their children dissolved. No one :)
Mom, Dad, thanks for everything that both of you has given to me. I don't want to make you upset. Now, I started to learn by myself. I started to decide everything alone. I miss both of you Mom, Dad. I love you. You are the best :)
Last but not least,
"Love is not thinking about yourself now, but about you and your partner in the future" ;)
Be blessed, Keep Loving~
Regards,
Putrii
The key in a relationship, beside TRUST EACH OTHER, is DO NOT BE SELFISH. That's what I think.
I think, the point of loving someone is not EVERYTHING IS FOR THEM. I don't think so. If your partner asked you to do something that against yourself, your habit, your daily attitude which you know exactly it is not good for you, will you do it? Even your partner say, "It's okay. It will be fine."
Will you do it?
The point of loving someone is not about you. It is about your partner, people you love and your partner love, and how you put God in your relationship.
If you love someone, TRY NOT TO BE SELFISH. Don't ever think like this, "The important one is me feel good, me like it. I don't care if my partner like it. It's me who happy first, then you."
Believe it or not, many couple think about it on their mind, unconsiously.
In a relationship, PUT GOD INSIDE IT. That's the basiccally thing. So, there are three people, you, God, and your partner.
Firstly, You should ask God before you choose your partner. A relationship is not just for today. It is for a period, the time where you will know each other more, find what you like or dislike from your partner's habits and attitudes, and chande yourself to be better if your partner doesn't agree with your habits and attitudes and you realized that is wrong too.
Secondly, if everything already happened, surrender all your relationship to God. Remember that He is your creator. He created you with a purpose. Let Him guide you in everything you do, surrender your life to Him, ask Him what He want do with your life, include your relationship. Then believe, He always give the best for you. But to reach the best, you need to have progress in your life.
Thirdly, whatever you want to do, either in your relationship or your life, think about people you love (which i believe they love you too) too. Is that, what you want do, give a good impact or not to them. I believe out there, many people love you. They don't want you dissolved. They want the best for you. Be careful with what you do, think about the result first. Is the final result from what you do, will give a good impact for you, people around you,or not. Is what you do make many people upset to you, or not.
This rule occur to your partner too. Think about your partner, people who love your partner. your future and your partner future.
Fourthly, look at your partner. If they have some bad habits, help them to change it. Even you should andry to them, and they angry to you too, if it is cause good impact, do it. But remember, don't ever sacrifice yourself. You should sacrifice, yes. But look, think about yourself too. If what will you do (the sacrifice thingy) dissolved yourself, don't do it. I believe your partner can think too. They have brain to think and they know how to use it. They are adult. They can make decision for themselves.
Both of you should grow up. You be better, then your partner too.
When you do the fourth part, I believe it will hurt you much. You see they angry to you, besides that, they don't realized that what you do it's all for their goods. Maybe they will say you are selfish or anything else, but actually you do it all is not for yourself. Here, you should be strong. Ask God for the strength. Don't let yourself give chance to your partner to back to their old habit, that you know it's not good for them.
Just remember this one, you want to help your partner to be better than before. You don't want they dissolved.
Here i remembered about my parents. Now I'm far from them. Now i should decide alone, which one is good or not for myself. I remembered when they were angry to me because I don't listen to them, then I was angry to them because I think they don't understand me, but now I realized, what they say to me in the past, IT IS ALL RIGHT.
Well, i propose to you all, which still life with your parents, LISTEN WHAT THEY SAY. They always want the best for you. No parents want to look their children dissolved. No one :)
Mom, Dad, thanks for everything that both of you has given to me. I don't want to make you upset. Now, I started to learn by myself. I started to decide everything alone. I miss both of you Mom, Dad. I love you. You are the best :)
Last but not least,
"Love is not thinking about yourself now, but about you and your partner in the future" ;)
Be blessed, Keep Loving~
Regards,
Putrii
Sins
there is NO big sins or little sins. Sins are sins. And for it, God sacrificed Himself. To save us.
Today, i started to think about sins. I don't want to talk about big sins that i've done, or little sins that i've done. Well, it is not important because sins are sins.
What i thinking of today is, why we, young people, teenager, always do the same sins again and again. Well, it is not once, i believe. we did again the same sins. it is AGAIN AND AGAIN.
Why it could happen? Because we think, there is a little sins and big sins.
Big sins that we think like, steal something worth it, or have sex before married, or etc, etc.
How about the little sins? Little sins like lying, cheating, use dirty words, etc, etc. Maybe some of you will say, "Well, it's okay. Everyone did it. It becomes habit."
taaa-daaa. That's the point. It becomes habit.
If we didn't let it get into our life from the first time, i believe with all of my heart and my mind and my life, IT WILL NEVER BECOME HABIT.
But now, after all happened, how we handle it? I'm not a perfect person, what i write here, i should do it too. I just share what i get, let us know it together and try to do it. :)
First, DO NOT GIVE ANY CHANCE for the sins. Any little sins. Don't let evil tempt ourselves. Protect ourselves with God's words. How could we know the God's words? Read Bible everyday. Be close to Him. Ask the strength from God, because we are, human, just a weak person. We cannot handle ourselves alone. we SHOULD admit, WE NEED HIM. We need our creator.
Second, when it already become a habit, ASK retrieval from God. And again, ask for the strength. Honestly, it will happen again, i know. But every time it happen, think about it, why it could happened? What makes it happened? Everything happen because there is 'something' started it. When you get it, tell it to God. Tell that 'something' to God. Ask God to help you to face it. Because now you know, it is your weakness.
Finally, i just want to say.
All of us were created by Him. He already saved us from sins, He give us freedom from sins, but many times we didn't appreciate it.
Ask for the strength for each day, because everyday has it's problems itself.
Do ours wisely, and let He guide our day. Surrender all to Him ;)
Be blessed, keep strong in Him.
regards,
<3>
Today, i started to think about sins. I don't want to talk about big sins that i've done, or little sins that i've done. Well, it is not important because sins are sins.
What i thinking of today is, why we, young people, teenager, always do the same sins again and again. Well, it is not once, i believe. we did again the same sins. it is AGAIN AND AGAIN.
Why it could happen? Because we think, there is a little sins and big sins.
Big sins that we think like, steal something worth it, or have sex before married, or etc, etc.
How about the little sins? Little sins like lying, cheating, use dirty words, etc, etc. Maybe some of you will say, "Well, it's okay. Everyone did it. It becomes habit."
taaa-daaa. That's the point. It becomes habit.
If we didn't let it get into our life from the first time, i believe with all of my heart and my mind and my life, IT WILL NEVER BECOME HABIT.
But now, after all happened, how we handle it? I'm not a perfect person, what i write here, i should do it too. I just share what i get, let us know it together and try to do it. :)
First, DO NOT GIVE ANY CHANCE for the sins. Any little sins. Don't let evil tempt ourselves. Protect ourselves with God's words. How could we know the God's words? Read Bible everyday. Be close to Him. Ask the strength from God, because we are, human, just a weak person. We cannot handle ourselves alone. we SHOULD admit, WE NEED HIM. We need our creator.
Second, when it already become a habit, ASK retrieval from God. And again, ask for the strength. Honestly, it will happen again, i know. But every time it happen, think about it, why it could happened? What makes it happened? Everything happen because there is 'something' started it. When you get it, tell it to God. Tell that 'something' to God. Ask God to help you to face it. Because now you know, it is your weakness.
Finally, i just want to say.
All of us were created by Him. He already saved us from sins, He give us freedom from sins, but many times we didn't appreciate it.
Ask for the strength for each day, because everyday has it's problems itself.
Do ours wisely, and let He guide our day. Surrender all to Him ;)
Be blessed, keep strong in Him.
regards,
<3>
Sunday, May 2, 2010
about believing
actually if the way we think can't be changed like the way kids think which easy to believe and never hesitate, we will not understand and experienced the power of God's love
i remember when i was a little kid, i want to be a stewardess. Mom told me that a stewardess should be a pretty woman, tall, and so on. Since that i started to take care about myself. I washed my hair everyday, i brush my teeth, always smile to everyone, etc, etc.
Because Mom said that a stewardess must be a cheerful person, smile every time even they are tired, etc, etc, coz their job is serve people in the air plane, now I become a cheerful person, and always try to help people as possible as i can.
now i'm not a stewardess, but take Visual Communication as my major, but it cause something to me :)
But my story is not the point here. The point is what i did. Well, i believe. I believe to my mom, and i did it.
I remember when i was sixteen, going to seventeen, i said to Mom, "Mom, i don't want to have an Identity Card."
And Mom replied, "Why? You don't want to be a young lady?"
From the deepest of my heart, YES. I'm not ready. Be a young lady means that i should learn to live alone, decide everything by myself, and the last is i will hard to believe.
I think it is easier to be a little girl. A little girl who always listen to their parents, believe that everything will be fine if she listen what their parents said.
It is easier to have faith if we still a little kid. But, i know that life must go on. Even we are grow up now, we should like a little kid, to feel the power of God's love.
The key is listen, and believe.
Believe, and do it in our life.
When we grow up and know this whole world, we forget some of our good attitudes when we still a little kid.
I really hope can have faith like 'little me'.
Believe in Him, and do mine. He will do the rest.
I know it's hard to believe. But if we try, it will happen.
Do the best, believe, and God will do the rest.
Be blessed, keep believe :)
regards,
<3 Putrii
Because Mom said that a stewardess must be a cheerful person, smile every time even they are tired, etc, etc, coz their job is serve people in the air plane, now I become a cheerful person, and always try to help people as possible as i can.
now i'm not a stewardess, but take Visual Communication as my major, but it cause something to me :)
But my story is not the point here. The point is what i did. Well, i believe. I believe to my mom, and i did it.
I remember when i was sixteen, going to seventeen, i said to Mom, "Mom, i don't want to have an Identity Card."
And Mom replied, "Why? You don't want to be a young lady?"
From the deepest of my heart, YES. I'm not ready. Be a young lady means that i should learn to live alone, decide everything by myself, and the last is i will hard to believe.
I think it is easier to be a little girl. A little girl who always listen to their parents, believe that everything will be fine if she listen what their parents said.
It is easier to have faith if we still a little kid. But, i know that life must go on. Even we are grow up now, we should like a little kid, to feel the power of God's love.
The key is listen, and believe.
Believe, and do it in our life.
When we grow up and know this whole world, we forget some of our good attitudes when we still a little kid.
I really hope can have faith like 'little me'.
Believe in Him, and do mine. He will do the rest.
I know it's hard to believe. But if we try, it will happen.
Do the best, believe, and God will do the rest.
Be blessed, keep believe :)
regards,
<3 Putrii
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